Day 01

Okay. I am trying fulfill my own promise to write everyday.

Indeed there are millions of reasons to make me postpone writing. Postpone will then lead to mood loss and therefore lead to cancellation. And I have to get myself out of that doomed cycle before it's too late.

Well at least today i managed to sit still here and force myself to write.

You know what? Actually this isn't a simple matter to me. 20 minutes ago when I was walking back home alone from the MRT station, I remembered that I need to start writing. Now or Never. I was so frickin dead on serious on starting to write up to the point that I have been starting to think about what should I write when I passed the security guard at the apartment's gate.

I was like,

oh my God oh my God, it's getting nearer and nearer to the lift! What should I write?

As if I didn't start to write, death will come swiftly to me. Wait. Was it a line from Imhotep's sarcophagus? Am I gonna get cursed?

Yeah, so in the middle of panic attack, many thoughts crossed my mind on what to write.

Oh! Should I try automatic writing, like they taught us back then during early foundation days in college?
I remember it was fun tho I remembered vividly that the content of my automatic writing was so surrealistically emo. Yeah, I was WUI (Writing Under Influence) indeed.
Or should I just take shortcut and write something in point form or numbered stuff? Like, "10 Things I would Love To Do, but I Haven't Moved My Ass Ever Since." Or, "Daily Schedule of My Ideal Day." Or stuff like that, you know.

Yeah, I know. That's cheating. You know a captain cannot cheat death!

Sorry, yeah there's a slight chance I am recently a Trekkie. Or, there's an even bigger fatter chance that I'm a 25-year old frickin fangirl.


Yea, SRSLY!!

Enought with the LOLcat grammar. Scotty, beam me back to reality.

Yea, stuffs like that crossed my mind while I was in the frickin lift! Just imagined how much pressure that me and my big mouth put on myself!

Then I finally reached home and decided to write anything that came up my mind.
Well, at least the writing went quite smoothly, although there were indeed moments in the beginning where I repeatedly paused, staring blankly at the screen, and deleting the entire paragraph, regretting it, and retardedly re-type them all again. Oh well, things I do for the sake of a goddamn posting!

Well, I guess this is good enough for the first day. My posting is quite cynical but that doesn't matter! By the end of this posting. I will tell myself, "Hey look! You finally managed to type something out of the blue! Look, a decent posting... if you'd like to call it so!"

Okay, fine. I'm glad at least it turned out rather well. My goal here is to exercise brain-to-finger coordination day by day. I will keep on writing until I got my good ol days back where when I wanted to write a story, I didn't have to burden my mind with anything at all. All I did was simply sat in front of the computer, open MS Word, and after I set the font to 12 Times New Roman double spacing, voila!--my fingers just run like mad on the keyboard and lo, I saw before my very eyes, words came together like a beautifully-sewn piece of quilt. A story told. And the magic is, I don't even know where the hell the story came from. Back then my brain and my fingers--they're really BFFs!! Now I'm trying to bring them back together for a kickass comeback. Sounds like a movie sequel, no?



[11.19] ahh. i couldn't believe i did it! yea, i'm a brave president! :p

:: buku, buku, bukuuu ::

Aduuh gue lagi pengen baca banyak novel neeh balik Indo! Gile pas gue ke Gramed, ada banyak buku-buku baru, baik novel terjemahan ato sastra modern Indo. Sebenernya gue bukannya keabisan novel total juga sih... masih ada The Genesis Code-nya John Case plus Gadis Pantai-nya Pramoedya. Malahan di Malaysia sebenernya masih ada novel Interview with The Vampire-nya Anne Rice (yg lg stuck bcoz males baca hehe :P) tp gw yah ternyata gatel juga liat novel-novel baru itu^^. Ni dia list novel yg rencananya siy, mo gw bli dlm waktu dekat ini hehe:

1. Perfume - Patrick Suskind

2. The Turk & My Mother - Mary Helen Stefaniak

3. The Hundred of Secret Senses - Amy Tan

4. Paris Van Java - Remy Sylado

5. Boulevard de Clichy - Remy Sylado

6. Kitab Omong Kosong - Seno Gumira Ajidarma

7. Berbagi Suami - Nia Dinata

Yaak itulah sodara2... tapi yang saat ini bener-bener lagi gw ngebet pengen beli tu yang no.1 punya, yaitu Perfume-nya Patrick Suskind, kaenya bakalan seru banget deh soalnya berkisar tentang cerita seputar seorang serial killer.

Sebenernya kemaren gue udah pengen beli pas lagi muter-muter sendirian di Gramed Pondok Indah. Tu buku harganya Rp. 45.000,- en pas gw intip dompet gue ternyata duit gue kaga cukup!! Duit di dompet gue Rp.42.000,-!! Kurang saceng lage bo!! Haiyalaaa T_T gara2 sebelonnya duit gue udah abis buat beli majalan Concept yg anyar huhu... tp gapapa kok, Concept yg baru ni bener-bener worth it banget! :)

:: cold water for a hot afternoon ::

As been excitedly planned from yesterday, today I took a trip to the National Art Gallery. Finally! It's been years since I went there. I missed those times. And lately I really got this sudden urge to go there and finally today, that chance came!

There are some exhibitions going on there. I'm very excited about that!!

:: Syed Thajudeen's Solo Exhibition: Paintings on Love ::


['Seroja' by Syed Thajudeen. DISCLAIMER: I don't own the artwork. This one is not one of the paintings shown for the 'Paintings on Love' Exhibition]

* Syed Thajudeen's paintings on love as the main theme. They got these beautiful color combination which creates an aphrodisiac mood. By the way, he gives red color to every human figure's lips, fingertips, and toetips... I wondered why? Well I got three personal faves from this exhibition. The first one is titled 'Lovers on Couch II' (if I'm not mistaken), the second one is the painting on the big panel about Paramesvara watching the mousedeer fights the fierce hunting dog, and the third one is another big panel painting which got people watching a dancer on a boat on a river.... geez, my explanation sucks! Haha sorry folks, been a long time since I kept up with my writing. Guess I'm getting old arghh!!

:: Women Artists Exhibition ::

* ahh, for this one I just wanted to highlight this: I'm very excited to see more works of my fave woman artist in Malaysia, Eng Hwee Chu. When I first went to The Art Gallery, the only work of her I saw was only the one titled "The Last Supper." Since then though, it has been my favorite paintings of all the paintings in the Art Gallery. Today I saw two more of her works. One is titled "Black Moon," and the other one... DARN!! I forgot the title!! But they're awesome... I think I've read it somewhere that they refer to the style as 'magical realism.' (which at first I thought IMO was something close to Magritte's definition of surrealism) Well, never mind the movement and all, I just personally loved her works :)

:: Lukisan Anak Pelukis ::

* now this is a very interesting exhibition! This one exhibits the works of the children of some famous Malaysian artists such as Shamiza Abu Hassan :D I tell you--I'm speechless seeing their works (did I sound like Charles? Ahem--sorry. But I'm sincere on this, y'know? Hahaha). They're only children ranged from 5-12 years old, I think. But their works are awesome, man!! Well, I guess the parents really taught them very well, those great artists!^^ In that very early age they've started using mixed media (and darn good at it), creating some expressive works of art which is not only limited to just simply creating 'pictures with amazing color gradation' (like, sadly, I noticed, is the average standard in winning a drawing competition in Indonesia).

What's difference in this Children's Paintings Exhibition is, they seemed to understand that art is not simply standardized and limited as creating pretty pictures but--it's the idea and the expression that matters. In this exhibition, I see more freedom of the soul to express--an aesthetic freedom not boxed inside those average standard of what a group of people thinks is beautiful; but an aesthetic freedom without a burden of what defines a good work of art. Some of the works might not have pretty color gradation, nor right proportion, but they speak for themselves. They tell a story.

All I can say about this painting is-it's how the purity children's souls should be expressed in art. They should be free, firsthand.

:: The Pop Art Exhibition (OMG again I forgot the artist's name. Sorry!)

* Sadly, by the time I visited his solo exhibition, the artist has already passed away on 31 July last month. But nevertheless, his pop works were awesome and interactive. Some of the 3D works remind me of DuChamp's Fountain somehow, I don't know why. But his idea of using magazine and newspaper collage, plus some curious cubicle structure, as a signature for each of his works is an amazing idea. Oh yea, there's this one curious installation there--a white desk and a white chair, each of them has a modified magazine print on it. Well to me, it seems like an interactive installation art actually. I really wanted to sit there for a while and feel something but I'm not sure whethere it's allowed or not, because they had put the 'Please do not touch the artworks' on every space of the works there. So I didn't. *sigh*

:: Bakat Muda Sezaman 2006 (The Young Contemporaries) ::

*well this one is not yet started. But they're calling for entries now :D I'm waiting for the exhibition on early December! I think this will be the 3rd BMS Exhibition I'll be seeing. The previous two were awwweeesome, man!! I can't wait for this one!! I hope they come out with more installation arts and interactive arts! XD

... so ended my report from this year's visit to the National Art Gallery. Haaa~! Finally. I haven't seen some fine arts in a while. It feels good. Like drinking cold water in a hot afternoon! :)

...[ better to light one candle than curse the darkness ]...