bitter repeat

//i wish i could say something rather than just walking beside you, mister//

tonight should've been a fine night

where I imagined a drunk couple

talked nonsense along the way home

and laughed their ass off--staggering along the dim pavement

a rare clear night sky above them, sprinkled with stars

not a sight you could easily find these days in big cities.

but today I went home with a bitter feeling

a feeling once forgotten, and now, resurfaced once more

only to hurt my heart and ruin my night.

a feeling of being useless

not being able to help--at all.

some people say,

i am a good listener

but not a good advisor.

i listen to people's complaints

but, that's about all i can do--nothing more than that.

usually, i've never had any problem with that

but when it comes to the people that i love the most,

and not being able to give any good advices, or comfort when they need it most--

it hurts.

it hurts to see them suffer alone and be helpless about it.

:(

sometimes, i wish i could be a pair of earphones just for once in a while

where i could give something comforting to hear, something to brighten their mood

and not just being a goddamn microphone all the time

where the only thing that i can do is just sitting still while they cry their heart out in front of me.

seriously, i feel like shit right now

so, sorry for this shitty posting.

i am going to end this blog without any enlightment or dramatic exit.

good night and thanks for reading.

hope to see you again in the next posting--which i hope won't be a depressing one.






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